My dearest A.,

I wrote you the last letter on Sunday but unfortunately exactly at the moment I wanted to ''send'' it to you, my internet connection stopped working so I am writing you now. Probably it is even better as more days have passed and I have more things to write to you.

It is a very early Thursday morning - 5am. You would ask - why I am up so early on Thursday morning when there is nobody at my place, I don't work and basically I am free all the time? Well... my little puppy is being a little sick today, so I slept lied next to her sleeping place in kitchen so she feels good and comfortable. I know that it may sound silly and stupid but I love her and I can't imagine what would I do to myself if something happened to her. No, I don't think I sound pathetic, she is my life now. 

Last time I wrote you it was Friday evening when I was waiting for my best friend and ''the guy''. Short after I wrote you she came and I gave her a little food, glass of wine and we talked, played with my puppy and just chilled a bit. She told me what she had done in the last days, about her work, etc. and then ''the guy'' came. We all drank some wine, played with my puppy and talked. Then Annie got bored I guess because she started talking about going to the old town to hit some bars, have a little partying or just go outside to walk around in the snow. I didn't feel like it because as hard to believe as it seems having a puppy isn't that easy and I was tired. Anyways ''the guy'' went to sleep with the puppy and only Annie and me were left in the kitchen talking. So she told me that my life is pathetic. I was actually really, really hurt. She said that I need to go out, meet people, etc but I don't want to. I love being at home, playing with my puppy and spending some quality time with myself. 

Quality time for myself. What's the harm in that? I think I've earned and deserved time for myself, away from everybody. I worked six months for a family with a hyperactive child. Yes, I was a babysitter but there also was a boy of 14 years and a dog! Okay, I loved, love and always will love that family, that's out of question. But I am only 19 and I took care of a child that was jumping all the time, talking all the time and couldn't pay attention to one thing for more than 15 minutes maximum. The boy was cool, a friend of mine but still they both got in arguments about stupid stuff and I always had to break them up. The dog also needed attention and I had to take him out! I mean, nobody can imagine how difficult it is if you have a little girl who just doesn't want to go out and somehow you have to convince her. Anyways, I worked long hours so now I am enjoying this time. Waking up what time I want, staying at home, reading, surfing internet, playing with doggy, going out and just doing whatever I feel like doing and yeah, once I will get my life together! I will get educated, will travel, will get a job, will settle down and have a family. I am only 19 and I have my whole life ahead of me! 

Like any other person in the world, I have got my own dreams and hopes and I don't want them to go nowhere so I can sit on a bench when I'm old some day and think ''Why did I let my dreams go away?''. There are too many people in this world who let their dreams fade away. I remember when I talked to one guy who was getting his Ph.D. and I asked him about his dreams and then he said he had always dreamed of living a year abroad then I told him to do it but he said that it is not the right time - studies, job, etc. He will never do this because he is too tied up and one day he will regret it!

I thought of writing also what I did on Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday but I don't feel like it anymore. Saturday I slept, Sunday I celebrated ''the guy's'' birthday, I made it really nice actually, Monday I met a friend and then just chilled at home, Tuesday the same and Wednesday the same. Nothing ''wow'', you know.

Now I am thinking of how awesome music is - it always helps. In any situation. Seriously I couldn't imagine my life without it. Here is a song for you: Violent Femmes - Good Feeling.

This will be it for now, I love you,

Anna.